I'm going to chase my dream!
I don't want to have any regret in future, because that feeling sucks to the max!
No more procrastinating! No more chickening out! No more hesitation!
I'm going to do it all by myself!
Hell yeah you bet I would!
I want to be strong, independent and mature!
And I will be!
Sounds a bit scary, aite?
A picture took last month, using Sandy's sucky nokia phone! Haha! I like this picture, though I'm not proud of it. All because I was all sweaty and maybe a bit smelly when I took this picture. Still haven't taken my shower after futsal! Kaka! That's just my STYLE! Well, I still look ok. It was the first time Aaron asked to take a picture with me! Usually he's very camera-shy! That's why this picture is very precious!!!!
I just got bang at my head by the idiot-est man ever living in this entire universe! And that's my landlord! He's just so brainless! How can a room with attached bathroom (shared with another girl, though) and another room half the size without attached bathroom same rental??? His brain got eaten by some monsters or what? OMG! This is so unbelievable! F**king idiot! URGGHH!! Somebody gets me some liquor please!!! Just joking....Hehe! Btw, my alcohol tolerance has dropped! Is that good or bad?
Anyways, I'm back in Ipoh now! It's going to be relaxing 2 weeks break for me! Just going to slack at home most of the time plus spending quality time with family and friends! Take care everyone!
I miss subang but I'm so glad to be home, finally!
It was such a disappointment when Manu lost to Everton in the semifinal of FA Cup! But it was a right choice to have youth players in half of the squad and let the first team to have a good rest before the big games next week. Manu can afford to lose FA Cup but not premier and champion leagues.
Still I think all the youth players put up a very good fight! Manchester United's reserve team versus Everton's finest team, and they still manage to draw the game. It's so sad that ManU lost because of penalty. Sucky penalties from Berbatov and Ferdinand. Aikz....
KLCC! Brightly lit!
My darling!
The long pool!
Went out with Aaron to KL yesterday. Just the 2 of us. Bought my train tickets and lots of other stuff. Shopping for myself, Aaron, his sis and Liza!
It was a very fun day. We joked and talked. I've learnt a lot about relationship between Aaron and Liza, plus me and Khidir. I'm really grateful to have Aaron this experienced or should I say old, guy to teach me so much about relationship! Hehe! Suppose it's a good thing that no one else wanted to go with us to KL!
Never have any expectation from your partner, because you're the one who will get hurt in the end.
Make sure you WANT your partner and not that you NEED your partner. You want your partner to make you happy. You don't need your partner to make you happy.
Everytime when you want to start an argument, try to stand in your partner's shoes and understand. Stop being childish and too subjective! Try to calm yourself down first!
Never compare your relationship to other's relationship. Don't get influence by your friends. You're the one who know what's the best for you.
We saw a dead kitten again on the way to mamak for football match. It's so sad. It lay there with puke around its mouth. I was shocked to see that its tummy was not rising up and down anymore. Its left eye popped out too. Poor thing and there's nothing I can do! Is there like a serial cat killer out there??? Sigh.... Life is so fragile!
Even though Man U lost in the semi final of FA Cup, I still had a very good day. Thanks to Aaron. Guess we're closer now. He gave me a hug when we were saying our goodbyes. Have fun back in your home. Gonna miss you and most of all, my darling.
Honeydew Sago! Love the glossiness of the sago!
My smiley egg!
Aaron enjoying his cream soup.
This is the best we could do. We were super exhausted.
There's a dead lil kitten at the alley that I have to pass by everyday to go to my col. At first, it was a very disgusting sight. But I pass by there everyday and I started to feel so sorry for it, because it just lay there, exposed.
Told Aaron about it and showed him the dead baby cat. And I thought we should do something for it. Actually I wanted to bury it, but I was a bit too late, cuz it started to decay and I shouldn't have any contact with it.
So Aaron suggested that we use a box to cover it. Thanks to Amos's hand-folded box, we covered the dead lil kitty today. Aaron even wrote R.I.P. "Kitty Cat" on the box. He put a stick on the box, hoping the box won't fly away or something.
So, lil kitty, may you rest in peace. So sorry that you didn't have enough time to have a look at this beautiful world. Its size is barely even larger than my palm. Life's so fragile.
Yesh, I'm still alive, after more than one week of book gorging.
Have been spending lots of time with my college buddies. Group study.
I gotta admit it was quite fun hanging out with them, except that we were preparing for our papers.
I've finished my finals, well, almost, Just 1 more paper on Saturday. It's art. Should be fine, I hope.
2 weeks break soon! Woohoo! Finally I can go back to my lovely HOME, back to my lovely FAMILY! Miss everything in Ipoh so much. Food, friends, my bed, mum, dad and brother!!!
Small matters matter a lot.
Small promises represent trust.
People tend to take small matters for granted.
And there is where people lose respect in each other.
My lil hamsup bear! Have been with my pencil box for years!
Skittles! In a mentos box!
Mcd's ad at my college! Ryan's eating the burger and I like fries more!
Aaron's enjoying the scenery!
Aaron again!
It's a very nice bridge!!!
Hahaha! It's fake! It's just a very big poster at my college! I bet this guy did the same thing too! This's my college's booklet! Advertising my college! And now you know! We didn't really go to that bridge there and took all those pictures! But they look real, don't they? I showed tian the pictures and she asked me where did I go! HAHAHAHA! GotCha!
I've been in SS15 for the whole entire week! Just went to pyramid for a while last fri! This's driving me crazy.
Everyday college then back at home and study! Final's next week! What to do!
Lecturers have been forcing lots of stuff into our minds cuz they have to finish the syllabus!!! That's insane! Their job is done when they've finished their lectures! But what about us? We need time to digest! I bet I'm going to vomit physics soon! 3 chapters in 1 week! That's crazy!!! Used to be just 1 or 2 chapters each week! Damn it!
Life's bored for me now. Aikz! I MISS GOING OUT SO MUCH!!!!!
Today when I was deleting my over flooding messages in my inbox, well, most of the messages are from him, I only realized that both of us kept quarreling about the same stuff all over again and again. The content of our messages are all almost the same, repeating the same stuff.
Dumb dumb...both of us......... I hope now I'm stronger and can understand him. Hope he can tolerant with my lil attitude. Hehe. Both of us can be quite harsh and rude when we're mad! Freaky!
Watched ManU playing againts Aston Villa yesterday! Damn cool! Somebody didn't want to watch it at the first place. Luckily I insisted, if not I'll regret cuz it was a very thrilling game to watch! Really can get high blood pressure from watching football games! Good job Ronaldo and not forgetting "Kiko" Macheda! Woooh! He's same age as me! Manchester United is on form again! WoooooHoooo!
Why is it getting harder every time?
I told myself that I have to get use to it.
Cuz it'll be happening more and more frequent.
I can't take all the tears anymore.
"There's always tomorrow."
But who knows? Who really knows there's always tomorrow?
There'll be tomorrow without you soon, very soon.
I don't wana be a crying baby.
I don't wana be your burden.
I don't wana make you feel guilty.
Look closer, it's easy to trace the tracks of my tears.
We were once close...
Closer than you can imagine.
They took my breath away, at least once.
But now, it will be for very different reason.
Suddenly, they stopped talking to me.
They ignored me when I talked to them.
After a few times, I give up, they win.
For whatever reason they did that, I really lost interest to know it anymore now.
It's very hard for me.
It's very hurtful.
I wonder how they feel.
Same as me or I'm just invisible to them now?
I still see them almost everyday.
But never talk. But they wished me on my birthday!!!
I don't know what to do!!!
I always have the urge to just grab them and say "Hey, what's your problem?"
Or maybe sms or msn?
Guess that'll be less awkward.
But I think I never will have the courage to make the first move....
Is there any other way to solve this problem?
It's so outrageous! These people.... Two very different people...
I still LOVE to have them as friends actually and they'll never know.
Dear mucus,
You turn from colorless to yellowish to greenish and now brownish???
Internal bleeding in my nostril.
My nose can't take it anymore!
I just feel like chopping my nose off!!!
Have been sleeping with my tissue box for almost a week. (curang-ing with it)
All the tissue wanton I've made for this past week can be piled up and
Be made into a real size football!
Killing lots of tree, my dear mucus.
When you wana stop disposing off my body?
I don't wana walk around making loud sound when trying to suck you in back and down my throat.
You don't really taste yummy, you know.
Lalalalala....
Dear mucus, please stop being so flowy....
You ain't a river.
You suppose to be just a pond.
Do you hear me, mucus??!?!??!?!?!?!?!
People say I'm the life of the party,
Cuz I make a joke or two.
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty,
Deep inside I'm blue.
So take a good look at my face,
You'll see my smile is out of place.
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears.
Outside I'm masquerading,
Inside my hope is fading.
Just a clown,
Since you put me down.
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break up with you.
So take a good look at my face,
You'll see my face is out of place.
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears.
I need you.... I need you...... I need you........
Awesomeness! Adam Lambert's The Track of My Tears
When the rain is blowing in your face,
I could offer you a warm embrace.
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true,
I knew there's nothing that I wouldn't do,
Go to the ends of the earth for you,
to make you feel my love.........
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/season_8/performances/kris_allen_to_make_you_feel_my_love
I can cry listening to Kris Allen singing this song..
People puffing cigarettes everywhere I go. Irritating and saddening. Some people I never expected to smoke, disappoint me. They are people I hope to avoid, knowing maybe. Please don't smoke in front of me! I don't wana die so early!
Miss Jerry is right! Some girls smoke because they think guys will think that they're cool if they smoke. I think some dumb guys think so too! Quite true... It's either that or not peer pressure. Bunches of dumb ass!
Glad that finally there's pictures of lungs filled with tar, abortion and lots of ugly yucky effects of smoking on cigarette box in Malaysia now! Should have done it way earlier! Don't think all those smokers can enjoy smoking as much as before, I hope! Have fun killing yourself and your loved ones, cigarettes suckers!
