thy: 2011

April's Snow

This is not me.

I want devotion.
I want obsession.
I want the whole world.

I always think that if I have the power to control something,
if I was given the chance to do it right,
And if I fail to get my desired result,
I'm kinda like a failure, a loser.

This has been making me feeling very tense, stressed out in the process of doing that something.
I've been thinking, that's probably, partially cause me to screw it up.
Then, should I just relax and don't think so much about it?
So that there'll be less disappointment, less sleepless night and less emo moment.

Ahhhh... Life's hard. Life's full with choices.
I've grown up a lot, I know. People are telling me that too.
I've changed when I moved to Subang, and now to New York.

In New York, I've learned a lot a lot a lot.
You know, it's true that you never know what's important until you've lost it.
I've lost it and I miss it so much that I often dream about it.
On the other hand, I gain too.
And I'm grateful.

Adrian gave me a lil celebration at 12am with this yummy Reese's cake and a present. It's a very pretty necklace!

Then we just went out shopping.....

watch movie......

and have dinner at one of my favorite restaurant in Buffalo...

I can't expect much since the people that I want to celebrate my birthday with are not here...

It's ok. I still enjoyed my day!

with him!

No, I can't give you the things that I don't even have myself.

Sorry, is all I can say.

How I wish I could make you happier.

当我单向的爱着你的时候, 我只好是太阳, 我依靠我自己的光支撑。等到我终于也被你爱着的时候, 我休息变成月亮, 我依靠你的光, 确认我存在。。。。【康永 ~ 给未知恋人的爱情短信】 ...................... ( 附圖是 Leonid Tishkov 作品 )

Truth is, there's nobody to please but myself.

Have to learn how to deal with rejection better.

There's no end to to-do list. You can only put a pause to it.

Helplessness
Ignorance

I hate it.
You make me feel bad about myself.
Maybe our paths shouldn't have crossed.